Reflective

I found myself thinking a whole lot this morning about being 18 weeks on Sunday.  This was halfway through with Alanna!  I'd like this one to cook a little longer, but her being preterm was divine intervention.  She was in respiratory distress and I pushed for about 10mins when they said stop, and did what they needed to do to pull her out.  5lbs 11oz...5lbs 5oz when we took her home....We stayed one extra day and then went back every other day for labwork/etc....fooor a week, maybe 2, I can't remember.  Praise the Lord she was relatively healthy..things could have been a lot worse.  At 22 and in my first year of marriage, I wasn't thrilled with becoming a mom.  But the second they threw that baby on me (for a sec before whisking her away to "rile her up a bit")...it was all over.  18mos later we decided we wanted more, 5 years after that we got pregnant and lost it, now we are 18 weeks along with this one!  This week has crept by.......waiting waiting for our anatomy ultrasound on Monday.  I cannot WAIT to see our little monster, and am praying for health.